That’s all I am doing most of the time since yesterday.
Amazingly I seek my solace through phone calls and meeting friends. Everyone has been so supportive even the guard at my housing entrance.

Thank you for all the support and concern. I will definitely pull through this ordeal but it will take time for this is a very very bad shit that was shoved in my face. I am in the office so I refrain from words or sentences that will move me to dwell further into the dark corner. I do not want to shed tears in the office. Pathetic as I am now, I truly am thankful for the open arms and ears that are so readily available for me. Yeah… some of you can just yell get over it and shit but if you know the details which I am not prepared to divulge upon for now or the future, I am not sure.

I am through with all the lies. Sorry but I think the couple of coming posts will be similar. I am still very much in need for tight long hugs. Yes I am a sissy. A disorientated sissy.